I know I haven’t been the best person in the world. In fact, I’ve been the worst person I’ve ever met here lately. I’m lost in many areas and I don’t know what to do. I’m still trying to prove to myself that leaving was the best decision. I put myself in these situations that are shameful. I haven’t had to do this in a long time and it’s crushing my every sanity thought. I’m digging a never ending hole.